Getting tied up to the society, it was difficult for me to express myself. I comply and be disciplined, never ever rebelled in my life. I followed every rules until one day, I realised that it doesn’t work for me. I decided to my routine. Suddenly, I was lost in the deep end and didn’t know how to move on. That’s when I knew I am free.
Once being freed, I feel like I have become the weird one. Everyone is heading to the city for jobs, but I hated the idea. Friends want to work in a high profile company and be comfort. I refused. My parents used to be very poor. They wanted me to have a smooth sailing life. I know. But, I was an extremely stubborn kid. I want to experience the nature. I am totally afraid of it, but I love it. My parents thought I was silly, but we compromised. One year, they said. So, I took the chance to flee my home. My aim – to become part of the nature.
I was a Bonsai in the glass house. I was protected with extra care by my family. When I was exposed to the real world, I was fragile. I have never had the instinct to stand up for myself, let alone have the chance to do it. When I was in Australia, everyone thought I would be destroyed. I wasn’t. I adapted. Now, I a cactus.
Travelling made my world timeless. I was in control of my life and waited for nobody. I woke up at random hour when I was jobless, had my meal when I was hungry, drink when I was happy and slept when I was bored. However, as the end was getting closer and closer, I was starting to be aware of the time again. The past will fade out of my memory, like a dream.
Living in my comfort box, I always wanted to do things that I do not dare to do. I dream and I forget. Living as a nomad for more than a year, I have managed to build many tents and sleep in them. I have made bonfire, met interesting people from different walk of life and lost in the middle of nowhere. It was wild and it was awesome!
Solo backpacking can be lonely at times. In my mind, I would speak to myself to keep me company. Am I crazy? Anyway, I doesn’t have to pretend to be anyone anymore. I do not long for anyone’s expectation. I am just me.